I love this picture because it shows that I am not perfect. People think “oh you’re skinny so why are you complaining”!? I did not always love myself. First, let me put this out there, I have wonderful parents who told me that I am beautiful every single day but that still did not diminish the insecurities I struggled with as a child.
At a young age, I was super skinny, I heard comments like “you need to eat” or “why are you so skinny”? I used to think that guys were not attracted to me. Growing up skinny, lanky and taller than most of the boys in my 8th-grade class was very difficult. I was in that awkward stage that lasted so long.
In college, I heard the comments the most! I lived on campus and my weight fluctuated from skinny to skinnier. You know how it is in college? The stress of studying all night or finishing a paper; I ate chips for dinner. The results did the opposite to me than most people and being a stick was not considered sexy.
This stage of my life is when I was really finding myself as an adult. Although I was a confident person, I too had insecurities that I hid. Even in college, I remember having a crush on a guy who thought I was too skinny and decided to talk to my friend who had more curves than me. It was then that I realized why am I going to be attracted to someone who does not like me for me, skinny, slim thick or plus size! Let’s just say this crush did not last long.
I have finally and naturally gained some weight but with it came some small rolls! “You just can’t have it all” As I have gotten older I began to accept myself, sticks and all. It does not mean those insecurities does not try to sneak back in my head but I realize that with self-confidence, my perception of myself has changed. I know that loving myself is the only way that others will love me!
I am now married to my wonderful husband of 4 years who loves me skinny, fat, rolls and all because
I LOVE MYSELF!
It took a long time to make it where I am but I’ve learned that is the best way someone can fully love you is when you exude the confidence and the love for myself.